Let's be honest here.

Today has been rough. I have been able to get through my work obligations, but it feels like I am hanging on by a thread.

And that's ok.

I have learned over the past two years that most people feel these feeling too.

Knowing I am not alone in this gives me a sense of security. I don't feel like a castaway on some island.

All alone.

"WILLLSOOOON!"

I know it was awful.

Truth be told the overthinking is the brain twister for me. And honestly, the more tired I feel equates to an epic casino royale battle between my mind and the intrusive fake news alerts and lies my fear tells me.

It's not easy.

It's a daily battle.

With armor and coping skills, I show up to tame the beast in my mind.

I know that many of you also struggle in this area.

But, I promise you it will get better as you learn more about yourself.

As I have grown in personal and emotional awareness, I have learned to roll with the punches, stop drop and roll per se, and hold on to the idea that everything will be ok.

Because it will always be ok.

No matter how awful I may feel.

No matter how long I cry silently in the crying corner in my bathroom.

No matter if the intrusive thoughts come barreling in like a runaway train.

Regardless, I know that I am safe, showing up and holding strong through these times shortens each episode.

Sometimes there is a bigger time lapse between them.

And sometimes I fail miserably, but I start over the next time.

A reset.

Trust me, I am exhausted, but I remain full of hope.

Hope for continued growth and connections with others who are also sharing the same struggle.

Many of you have come forward and have written me through email, DM, or through my social media posts.

" I don't know what to do."

"I lost my passion and I'm scared and alone."

" Thank you for talking about your story."

" I need help."

" I have felt that way since forever."

I can feel their pain through their words.

I respond to each of them letting them know that there are others in the same boat, rowing manically against the current that their mental health is pushing them against.

Each time I come on to the blog and write for you or speak to you through an episode of the podcast, it allows me to share life's struggles and give hope to many that are continuing to struggle.

When you look at social media and or influencers they share inspiring, go-getter, beautifully created posts but it lacks authenticity to the negative experiences in their lives.

It makes me curious.

Do they struggle?

If so, did they ever feel like they wanted to give up?

Do they ever feel like they're blowing toxic positivity in their messages?

What was challenging in their lives and how did they feel?

Do they think that they are relatable?

Do they want to be relatable?

These are just a few questions that run through my mind when I see people on the internet.

Not that I want to be the Negative Nancy, but to bring a non-fake presence into social media where I show the world how and what it feels like to live with a mental illness.

Let me rephrase that.

I want to share with the world that you can have a successful life living with a mental illness. Many of these people on the internet share these struggles too, but they don't talk about them.

As in Glennon Doyle and Christie Tate, they both talk about the good, the bad, the messy, and their lives which sometimes can be a struggle.

They truly live out loud.

They connect with their audiences sharing their mental health struggles.

It is real.

And I am proud to be a part of the movement.

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